ME AND MY LONELINESS

i am smiling,i always do.
i look happy and talk freely because
that's me and that's what others think about me.

but no, my dear
i am not what u see,
i am not what u think,
i have a lot of pain in my heart,
and a lot of sadness in my thought
try to feel me and you may feel my pain.

i feel so lonely when i am alone
i want to get lost
i feel so tensed,about my life
i want to forget who i am
my life has altered into
a mystery not a beauty.

sometimes i want to laugh
laugh from my heart
but there's no one to laugh with me.
sometimes i want to cry
cry from my soul
but there's no one to catch my tears.
so,i feel so sad
and get tired of my life
i wish for a friend
to help me get rid of my loneliness.